Awake in the rosy dawn
appearing at the bedroom door, hair tousled,
ready for my warm place in the bed
while I go to the computer,
he throws a smile
bright as the unrisen sun
over his shoulder as he curls into his nest.
Then while I fetch mail, and try to write,
the endless questions start,
about percents and series, about the child
he thinks he will have, about the dream he had
last night, about the universe.
He is up, dancing in the hall, long limbs thrown wide,
gleeful because he's thought of a new word, "jhip",
which means kinder than kind
and contrasts with "ziggy" of two days ago,
and wants me to invent conversations with his future child
and him, and me, and his future wife (who is named Sally,
for reasons I'll never know.) What would Morgan say?
What would Sally say? What would I say if
(how unlikely this is!) he were ziggy
to Morgan and she and Sally came to me?
Then it's letters--new letters, that can make two sounds,
as c and g already do...but his are more fun.
He designs the letters, defines their function: seef
makes s and f, while fik makes f and k...
and then spells with them, expecting me to know
what the word is...
he skirts around the rude possibilities,
eyes sparkling with mischief.
It's not even 10 o'clock yet,
his father's in the garden but I'm available.
Dishes undone, washing undone, outside work undone,
I can't withdraw from the dazzle
thrown from the facets of his mind...
"If I were being infinity percent mean
would you say I was a goblin?"
I would say you are what you are
which is not defined by words,
and changeable as morning light
moving across the walls to illuminate
first one thing then another.
"Are you going to send me away
if I say infinity percent mean words?"
Not a chance, morning dancer, light-bringer,
fractal mind elaborating patterns:
not a chance.